I am in a funk lately.

A deep, watery, murkish funk of boredom.

I can't seem to climb out of it. It sucks.

This boredom is akin to that special time of the month. Not a good god damn thing to do for it.

I log onto the game I play and I just feel bleh. Roleplay seems almost like a chore. I sit around and build all weekend (which consists of about a half hour of work and the rest sitting around because I already had most everything finished up.) I log on my Alt character and just feel bleh. No one likes her and she doesn't especially like anyone else. She's a twat. Not especially arrogant, but very dispassionate and it gets to me sometimes. Its hard to pull off such apathy at times.

I can't get into roleplay lately.

My radio show this weekend was sort of shitty. Amusing, but shitty none the less.

My husband was off camping with the boys and I wasn't invited. I sat around my house trying to not feel bored with everything.

I read about 2,000 pages of manga to try to stiffle the boredom. It didn't work. Amusing manga though. One about Bread, the other about boxing and yet the two were strangely similar. Only in Japan can they come up with manga like that.

So, now what? How shall I crawl out of this funk? I think I'll write a short story or two. Finish off that bottle of wine I started and masturbate.

I think I'll find some cheesy MUD to play where I can create a throw away character and not feel bad if I quit the game after a week. Maybe it will get my roleplaying mood flowing again. (And give me an idea for my next real roleplaying character.)

Screw it. I'll drown myself in work and tea. I'll come up with a new bread recipe for the big work Thanksgiving thing. I'll just take a step back for a while and pretend to be something I'm not.

Normal.

Posted by Utopia at November 7, 2005 08:27 AM

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