Seraphim's Journal of Muses

I stole this from Conq - little thief I am ;)

Copy this entire list into your blog.
BOLD everything about you that is true.
Leave plain anything that is false about you.
Put an asterisk (*) at the end of false statements you would LIKE to be true.

I have had sex while wearing a blindfold.
I have blindfolded someone else during sex.
I have had sex while watching porn.
I have had sex while surfing porn on the Internet.
I sleep better after sex.
There are some nights I cannot sleep without sex or masturbating.
The bed is NOT my most favorite place to have sex.
I am turned on knowing someone is watching me masturbate.
I have masturbated for someone over a web cam.
I have had sex over a web cam.
I will have sex with someone I just met if they turn me on.
I have been tied up during sex.
I have had sex with someone who was tied up.
I have dripped wax onto a lover's body.
I have had a lover drip wax onto my body.
I have a foot fetish.
I have a leather fetish.
I have a tickle fetish.
I like being choked during sex.
I have had sex in a burning building.
I have erotic art on display somewhere in my residence.
I enjoy nudie magazines.
Erotic toys are a regular part of my budget.
I think PLAYBOY is tame, maybe even boring.
I have clicked on porn links in my email.
I know the difference between girl/girl and lesbian sex in porn. *
I have watched more than one gay/lesbian porn video.
Much of what I know about sex comes from porn.
Interracial sex turns me on.
I think we should do more to understand the cultures of sex.
I would participate in sex research given the opportunity.
My current lover does not sufficiently meet my sexual needs.
I currently have a "crush" on someone of the same sex.
I have had sex at my place of employment.
I am often disappointed in my sexual relationships.
Some people might describe me as a nymphomaniac.
I am difficult to live with if I'm not having sex on a regular basis.
I sleep better with someone snuggled up next to me.
I have had sex under water. [ed. note: Well, almost, anyway ;)]
I have had sex in the snow.
I am in a polyamorous relationship.
I have to have music playing while having sex.
I have had more than ten orgasms in one night. *
I have flashed strangers.
I have given sex as a gift.
I have set-up a three-way for my lover.
I stopped during this list to have sex.* [ed. note: Hehe I wish ;)]

Posted by Seraphim at 08:33 PM | Permalink | Comments (0) | TrackBacks (0)

I was suprised to find out today that Conq and Myssa responed to my 'Tagged!' post! Me big happy. Me think no one would. Woot woot. So, here is some linky-love for the wonderful CONQ and MYSSA!

Now - back to cleaning my apartment. Males are messy.

Posted by Seraphim at 06:44 PM | Permalink | Comments (1) | TrackBacks (0)

Relationships are often tricky. I learnt this at an early age, and luckily its a lesson I remembered. I don't know how I'd be coping now if I didn't. I have found that more than anything though, they are about compromise. Its not about finding the person who is 'easiest' to be with... it's compromising, and finding the person who is willing to compromise with you. My last relationship was nasty. I know that now. I can look back and say, yes, that deffinately was the worst mistake I ever made. A lot of pain was caused by it - not just for me, either. It was -easy- to stay in the relationship... Only because I was scared too leave, but that did make it easy to stay. But there was no compromise there... I couldnt make the good times last long enough in my memories to make up for the bad ones. Theres an old rule which says that for every 1 bad time with your partner, there should be at least 5 good ones. Looking at the relationship I have now... I can't truthfully say that is happening for me. Its far from happening, often its more like 5 bad times for 1 good times. 5:1 rule. The compromise is that I don't leave, because I can do with him what I could never do with my last relationship - I can make the good memories last so that the bad ones, don't seem significant. With this relationship, I learned to forgive. Not to forget, for that is neither healthy for me nor does it help me learn. But I can -forgive-, which is fifty times more important. Its the compromise, the balance, that is the delicate thing... I knew it would be, I didn't go into this blind or anything like that - I knew it would be tough. And I am not complaining, as such. Just letting off steam. With the last guy it was easy to stay. With this one, it should be easy to leave. Thats what my head tells me. "It should be easy to leave him."
But then there is that little part of me somewhere else... (Somewhere that I didn't really know existed before he came.).. which follows it up with a quiet, plaintive whisper of, "But it isn't...."
Love is complex and difficult.
It hurts.
But the compromise I have, with myself, and with him, makes it bearable in a way that makes it enjoyable. I have to hurt a little, now or again... Or I wouldn't ever appreciate anything good.

Posted by Seraphim at 05:19 AM | Permalink | Comments (0) | TrackBacks (0)

Poking around all the blogs I read, and looking at Strega's, I see that.... I have been tagged!

So, I must tag in return.

The rules:
1. Delve into your blog archive.
2. Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions. Ponder it for meaning, subtext or hidden agendas…
5. Tag five people to do the same.

Firstly.... I don't have anywhere near 23 entries in this blog. But I did in my old blogger.com blog. So I decided to use that one, poked around and grabbed the fifth line of the 23 entry, and found.....

"...Just me and Brongar, it seems."

I was suprised. I set about deliberating it. It set me thinking about how much things have changed. When I wrote the entry in question, Brongar was still thousands of miles away, in another country, just one of my strange and loveable little online friends. A special one I suppose, the entry was written just after the wedding... but... still. Very differnt now I guess.
But It was nice to ponder over it... Made me appreciate Brongar for a minute. Well, until he said he wouldnt even do the washing up, anyway...... ;P

So, time to tag! I unfortunately only know of three people who haven't already been tagged... but here they are.

1) Brongar
2) Conq
3) Myssa

So go forth!

Posted by Seraphim at 12:01 PM | Permalink | Comments (1) | TrackBacks (0)

Time for some deep thinky-type stuff, for a brief moment. Two quotes:

"Love isn't a feeling.... it's something you do."
"You will never know love unless you surrender to it."

Interesting. My brain has been buzzing pondering over these oh-so philosophical questions.....let's take them one by one.

"Love isn't a feeling...it's something you do." - Now, after much deliberation....I have decided that I agree with this. Love isn't just a feeling or emotion - those are unpredictable, flimsy, alien to me. Love is something you -do-....love is flying thousands of miles to take a risk. Love is controlling yourself for the good of someone else. Love is walking beside, not following. Love is many things that I simply don't know, and can't understand. So yeah. That little philosophical quote gets a thumbs up from me.

"You will never know love unless you surrender to it." - A scary concept. Perhaps a true one... I used to think I knew what love was, but I found out quite soon after that little foolish assumption, that I didn't. But I'm not very good at all this love stuff, I'll be the first to admitt that.

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