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Busy

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 23:21:13 +0000

Sorry i havn't been around lately everyone. THis is the busiest time of year for me.. i will post something soon.. Bye bye

Surgery

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 19:47:51 +0000

As many of you know i was having a routine surgery done Wednesday. To let you all know that it went better than expected. When i got there i was asked by my doctor if he could do a different procedure. This is the procedure that is done to meniere's patients that are older. There is a 20 percent chance i would lose all my hearing in one or both ears. I agreed. Not being able to do it when i was younger because the percentage chance was 80 percent, i thought .. why not? Altho it does help me hear a little better, i still cannot hear much without my headphones or a hearing aid that is so uncomfortable. This is because much damage was done when i was younger. But it should take away all side affects from the disease itself because it allows the fluid to drain out all of the time. So i realized today that my setting on my headphones, wich are made by a medical company, needed to be lowered from -6 to -13. A improvement that even my doctor was not expecting, but hoped for. My hearing is in Flux all the time. Today i had 3 minutes where if i listened close, i could hear my roomate talking on the phone. And i was able to hear my sister's voice without a device for the first time in 12 years. Of course i cried! lol. Anyway i will keep everyone updated.

Buttercup

Growing up

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 01:33:18 +0000

In the last few months i have been going throu a transition of sorts. I actually think that i am a different person for the better. I realize that life is not about how many guy's think your hot. How much power you can have over someone. Who's head i can fuck with today. Yeah i don't care who knows it. One of you reading might think OH I KNEW IT. She was so fake. Guess what??.. i was. But don't think for a minute that i will not be a great person. Yeah i might have crossed your path a time or two. Make you think that i am some kind of innocent girl who wouldn't harm a fly. And you believed it. Some of you know what kind of person i am. And the ones that i will keep close to my heart are the ones that not only know what kind of person i am, but know what kind of person i will become. People HURT! I know this now. I hurt. I have gone to far in my life covering up the truth. For the first time in my life i am scared. Scared of what?

Ok Marsha Brady did it again :(

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 00:27:25 +0000

About 3 months ago i had halo. And i use a mouse to play halo. I picked my laptop up forgetting my mouse was connected, and here it comes right for my head.. i couldn't stop it. I had a cut on the bridge of my nose shaped like an S. When i told Darkstar this he said.. Marsha! Marsha! Marsha! Refering to the time she got hit in the nose by a football. My halo cd got broken a couple weeks later by my baby cousin. So when christmas rolls around guess what i get? Yep .. my daddy gets me halo. Today i was talking to Brian and Sandow on msn. I picked my laptop up.... OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HERE IT COMES AGAIN RIGHT AT MY NOSE!... Same cut.. same spot just a tad lower :(.. Its bleeding :(

Signed Marsha Buttercup

Never get over, Never forget

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 02:56:12 +0000

It really hurts me when someone i care about is hurting. It is easy for us to tell our own stories of loss. But the truth is that every loss is different. Because of the little things. The little things i think we remember the most. I think Webkittyn will remember the first time Claude was brought to her. She will remember that when everything would go wrong, that she could always turn to Claude. To hear his purr and the sound a cat makes while laying next to you. I remember very little when i could hear as a little girl. But i do remember that sound. I think that looking at the stuff that is written about Claude, that Webkittyn and Claude was a perfect match. She needed him and he needed her. That void will never be filled, never be touched again. I know that Webkittyn will never get over it. Because this is a thing that can never be gotten over. The memory of such a close friend will be with her forever. And i will remember February 7, 2006, when a loved one of my good friend Webkittyn passed.

Claude

Thu, 09 Feb 2006 01:39:05 +0000

Just want to say how sorry i am that Claude has passed away. My heart is with WebKittyn and Darkstar for the loss. We all know how much Claude has meant to Webkittyn but also remember that Darkstar saved our kitty from a fire! So much love to both of you. And we will never forget!

Buttercup

When I'm doing all the hurting, Nobody Can hurt me

Thu, 09 Feb 2006 00:40:56 +0000

Wow! Can you believe i actually said that to someone?

Continued

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 21:14:22 +0000

When i was 10 years old Coby moved away. My first day of middle school 2 years later, i was sitting in science class and some boy plops in the seat next to me. I really wasn't paying attention. And this boy taps me on the shoulder .. i just gave a look and a smile and turned my head back to my book. Again he taps me on the shoulder. I am irritated by now. I say What???!! Then i recognized him. I said Oh my God.. Hi. He said "can i sit next to you?" And i replied sarcastically "Now why would you want to do that?" and he said " just to sit next to the prettiest girl in the class". I guess after that is when me and Coby became very close. This time instead of hanging out with my brother, it was me. We did everything together. We soon became best friends. Its hard to explain in words how i felt about Coby.

Hi! I'm Cold Meat!

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 21:26:20 +0000

When i was 7 we moved to the next town over. To me this was a world away. When i woke up the first morning i was so tired. I didn't know where i was at. I was wearing a pink night-gown with Barbie on the front. I walked into the living room and scanned the living room and kitchen to see if mommy and daddy was up. I saw a flash of something out of the kitchen to my left. Ah my daddy was up! Then all of a sudden the front door fly's open and light floods the living room. I took a step back and there he was. He was wearing a cowboy hat and two plastic guns in holsters wrapped around his hip. I saw his lips move, "Hi I'm cold meat! ...............DADDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. at the top of my lungs I SCREAMED. . My Daddy comes running into the front room. I looked up at him as he stared at the strange boy in the door way. I was learning sign and reading lips at the time. But instead of "HI I'm Coby" i saw, "Hi I'm cold meat!"

To Coby

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 21:45:14 +0000

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never strayed too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never strayed too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Because of you-Kelly Clarkson

Coby 1985-1999

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 21:40:02 +0000

I am sorry i havn't been able to post more. My grandfather passed away early Thursday morning. He was diagnosed with Acute Leukemia last week. He must of had chronic leukemia for a while. We are not sure. They decided to start chemo.. but first they wanted to remove his teeth. I do not know why this is done. But they did that. And they usually wait 2 weeks to start the chemo after the teeth are pulled, to make sure there are no infections in the mouth. But they wanted to start it right away. So i guess it was to late. Anyway i will be back blogging again shortly

Buttercup

Unorganized and Drunk Webkittyn?

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 11:32:01 +0000

Yes! Tonight another Webkittyn Wednesday!
She will not be ready for this show! She might have a couple drinks before the show!.. Who knows. I can't wait because every week the show gets better. Please be sure to check out the show at 930 pm Eastern time on www.mangoradio.us .. and when your done connecting be sure to visit the chat room www.mangoradio.us/chat.
Webkittyn is very entertaining and plays your songs. Thats right . She plays the songs her listeners request. You can find out more about the show at. www.webkittynwednesday.com

Ehlonna's Interview

Wed, 18 Jan 2006 02:13:20 +0000

Hurricane Katrina was the eleventh-named tropical storm, fourth hurricane, third major hurricane, and first Category 5 hurricane of the record-breaking 2005 Atlantic hurricane season. It was the third most powerful storm of the season, and the sixth-strongest Atlantic hurricane ever recorded. Katrina formed over the Bahamas in late August, and crossed southern Florida at Category 1 intensity before strengthening rapidly in the Gulf of Mexico. The storm weakened considerably before making its second landfall as an extremely large Category 3 storm on the morning of August 29 along the Central Gulf Coast near Buras-Triumph, Louisiana.

Storm surge from Katrina caused catastrophic damage along the coastlines of Louisiana, Mississippi, and Alabama. Levees separating Lake Pontchartrain from New Orleans were breached by the surge, ultimately flooding about 80% of the city. Wind damage was reported well inland, impeding relief efforts. Katrina is estimated to be reponsible for $75 billion in damages, making it the costliest hurricane in United States history; the storm has killed at least 1,386 people, becoming the deadliest U.S. hurricane since the 1928 Okeechobee Hurricane.

Katrina Timeline

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 18:13:49 +0000

First landfall
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
5 pm EDT - The U.S. National Hurricane Center (NHC) issues a statement saying that Tropical Depression Twelve had formed over the southeastern Bahamas.
Wednesday, August 24
11 am EDT - Tropical Depression Twelve is upgraded to Tropical Storm Katrina.
Thursday, August 25
5 pm EDT - Tropical Storm Katrina is upgraded to become Hurricane Katrina, the fourth hurricane of the 2005 season.
6:30 pm EDT - Hurricane Katrina strikes Florida between Hallandale Beach and North Miami Beach as a Category 1 hurricane with 80 mph winds. Eleven people die from hurricane-related causes.—"A chronology of Hurricane Katrina and its aftermath," Associated Press, 3 Sep 2005
Friday, August 26
1 am EDT - Maximum sustained winds had decreased to 70 mph and Katrina had again become a tropical storm.
5 am EDT - Maximum sustained winds had again increased to 75 mph and Katrina is once again a category one hurricane.
11am EDT - Blanco asks President Bush to declare a State of Emergency for the state of Louisiana due to Hurricane Katrina.," Louisiana Governor's Office , 27 Aug 2005.
Bush does so, authorizing the Department of Homeland Security and FEMA "to coordinate all disaster relief efforts…" and freeing up federal money for the state. Statement on federal Emergency Assistance for Louisiana," Office of the White House Press Secretary, 27 Aug 2005.
11pm EDT - more than two days before Katrina reached land, the hurricane specialists said the hurricane would make landfall in the bayous of Louisiana, east of New Orleans. They pinpointed a town called Buras as the most likely place it would strike. They were off by 18 miles. In the business of hurricane prediction, that's laser-beam accuracy. Tamara Lush, " For forecasting chief, no joy in being right ," St. Petersburg Times , 30 Aug 2005
Now imagine for a moment going to bed Friday night. Category 1 Katrina with winds at 80mph. Don't get me wrong. It is still a dangerous storm. But you have to remember that Category's double the damage it can inflict. You wake up and you are seeing a Category 3 Hurricane. This Hurricane simply exploded over night. And it was not finished.

I am Fuming!

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 21:02:34 +0000

I find it very childish for people to threaten people on the mud. I find it very immature to use certain words to describe a female. People like Farg from ToD who think because they do something for the mud, that they deserve special treatment. The truth is.. Don't do things for people because you expect to get something in return. If you donate to the mud, you still must follow rules. I don't promote waterdeep, ToD and Webkittyn wednesday just because i expect to be treated better. I do it because i enjoy ToD. I enjoy Webkittyn Wednesdays. Me and Kali/Lorna are not close friends. Who knows if we would even be friends irl. At the same time i know how she feels about me. Some of it good.. some of it not so good. My relationship with with her, bad or good will never change the way i feel about the show or the mud. For example. I liked watching Charles Barkley play basketball. But in real life.. he is a jackass. That doesn't mean i turn off ESPN classic cause they are showing a game he played in. I watch it cause i enjoyed watching him play. I am selfish. The longer Webkittyn Wednesday is on.. the more entertained i am. Sorry if that hurts anyone. But it is true. So think about it farg the next time you start crying about someone ripping you off. And for the threats that the others have been making.... get a life. Thats all i have to say on the subject i am still mad, and i have no idea what the fight is really about anyway.

Buttercup