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December 19, 2005
Why me?
Most of you know that i am very different off the mud. On the mud, I goof off and have fun. Some of you may think i am like that irl. I am not a shy person, but i am quite. I have been told that I speak well, but being mostly deaf gives me that toneless sound. Couple of you i have skyped with have heard it. So irl i communicate mostly by facial expressions. Most of the time you will find me as a happy girl. It takes alot to upset me. But when i get upset i almost always get over it quick. I know that my problems are insignificant compared to others. But this Friday, i was attacked by some jerk. I was going to spend most of that day getting ready for the Children's Hospital visit i was making with some of my teammates the next morning. But a x-boyfriend, and close friend invited me to go to a friend of his house to watch a movie. I said ok. When we got there, I sat down on the couch and my friend layed on the floor with his girlfriend. The friend of his was also on the floor with his girlfriend. There was this other guy there that i had no idea who he was. He came and sat next to me. He seemed like a normal guy. About 15 minutes into the movie he tries putting his arm around me. So after like a minute i thought .. Oh my god i want to get out of this. So i got up and went to the kitchen. Grabbed a coke and sat on the couch behind everyone on the floor. About 15 minutes later he does the same thing and sits next to me again. So im watching the movie, and i feel this pressure on my leg. I look down and he has his hand on my thigh.I chuckle and move it off my leg. I start thinking about excuses i can make.. to get my friend to take me home at this point. But before i can act. This JACKASS puts his hand on my chest and tries to kiss me. I get up screaming at him, and at this point i am really flipping out. This guy has a smirk on his face. Finally my friend turns me around. And he asks what happened. I told him, And i swear i never got done telling him and he was on the couch swinging on this guy. I was in tears. I pulled my friend off and we got into his truck. Yes us girls do stupid things and i do also, But i was so upset i started hitting my friend cause i was so mad he would take me to a place like that. He grabbed my hands and apologized. It really wasn't his fault, Not like he knew the guy. But so much was built up inside of me i couldn't control myself. This has happened to me before. I don't know why, My guess is guys look at me like, "oh she has a disability, she is weak". Or maybe most of you guys are real jerks. The next morning my friend brought me flowers. Atleast there is a couple good guys out there. Everytime i tell this story, it makes me want to hit something lol. But when i got to Children's i was so happy to let it go for a while. The kids were so happy. We take those little girls and little boys problems away from them for a short time, and the faces light up. They forget about all the other stuff, the wires, the nurses, the funny beeping noises, the shots, the skin graphs, and the yucky medicine they have to take. And it hit me, Not only do we take away problems from them, they take away ours too.
Love always,
Buttercup
Posted by DeAnna at December 19, 2005 10:34 AM