I've discussed imagery on the Church site. What I find is that many people concern themselves with their "image" more than they're imagery. It's like they just want to act like something they aren't rather than be what they either truly are or want to be. This is where the human condition is upsetting. I believe I am who I portray myself to be. I believe I am as true to myself when I talk to people.
Even when I do my KMRL radio show, I stopped trying to be all spooky and shit for "The Darkhours". I realize that I can still be what I want to be and still be myself. No one wants to talk to a gloomy Darklord all day. I think that it's far easier to get along with people if there's at least a balance of good humour in it all. In fact, I was told that my show was better when I was more myself and relaxed than when I tried too hard by being all... "dark announcery" and shit.
I've actually been accepting things lately. I finally accept my voice, both singing and speaking. I used to hate them both so in the end I was trying to be something I wasn't by trying to change them,. Then I realized that in doing that I wasn't being true to myself or my image.
I don't think I'll be hiding from myself anymore. My question remains... do you? Are you truly yourself in the face of your friends? Are you a disciple of imagery or fakery?
Posted by Darkstar at October 24, 2006 06:15 PM | TrackBackThis is a very good topic, and one I have discussed a lot recently with some friends, so I am elated to see it discussed here…as I am a long time lurker.
If I were to answer in a rather simple fashion...I would have to say "Fakery".
There are parts of who I am, and what I enjoy that are not easily accepted among "American Suburbia”. Therefore, I feel that I do have to hide those facets of myself.
I have a group of friends who know me, my fetishes, my faults, and accept me and LOVE me for who I am. Those I would call true friends, as I feel much closer to those people…even the ones I have yet to meet.
Then of course, there are the “others”. The ones that see what I LET them see. The ones that believe I am “normal” and “innocent”.