A prophet needs many things. He needs to have his head in order. He needs to have his affairs in order and above all he needs his circle in order. He needs his friends, his confidantes and his followers all to be on the right pages let alone the same pages.
I came to a realization, I've outgrown my friends. Yet there are those whom I've truly neglected. The ones that are my inner circle. Those who know me best. Those who support me. Trimming the fat is recommended, however in the same breath, I must nurture those I've more or less shat upon. I want to take this special post to apologize to those I've wronged. Because of this, I have no muse and may very well be alone this birthday. Not that I'm sorrowful for that. I'm no longer holding pity birthday parties for myself. Y'know... Having a friend is one thing, but you'd trade all the acquaintances for just ONE good solid friend you can trust. If they can be a muse or collective of muses, then one is truly blessed. I need to make that a reality. I cannot do this alone. I realize that now. It's going to take a major support team to make all the plans come to fruition. Maybe the best birthday present I can give myself if not a car or a song... Is a friend. A true friend and hopefully a muse. I need to stop being so much into myself. So I guess today's a good day to start putting the right foot forward and making people in my life know that they matter and that I appreciate all they do for me. They don't ask for much... Just to be treated fairly. That's not so hard now, is it? So why do I do these things to them? Why do I spread my ill revered gloom and doom on them? It's dumb for me to be so negative. I'm not the blaze of the future I once was. I need these people to remind me of who I once was, who I am and who I was meant to be. Rather than ignoring what they say, I need to listen more. I'm sorry, those of you who know who you are... I promise that as I run through my "prophet in training" status, I'll learn to treat those well who will in the end be my greatest asset over money, music and whatever fame and success I can muster up. Just a quick separate note to those who will be my Council of Elders.