June 10, 2005

Time is a state that attacks my mind

More of an essence than ever, time is the constant enemy. My time grows short as my windows of opportunity seem to be closing about me. The Engineer I'd been working with has decided he hates his job, they gave him a more demanding position and now he searches for another. I may be able to help him with that... But time slips away in the meantime.

I think we all waste time. Too much time is spent discussing plans in committee rather than formulating a feasible working system quickly and acting on it. What is the saying? "The best laid plans of mice and men"? I've spent years planning Epica... Growing it from the seed of my original "Goth-funk" project. Only in all that time I wasted even more time by not doing anything to prepare for the inevitable launch of the Epican genre. Now I feel like I'm scrambling against time to fill in all the blanks as the sands of time in my mind run out.

This happens every year as the rite of ascension approaches. Only each annual rite brings me further away from the golden fleece.

The issue is more than just producing the music. It's the entire package. It's the mind, the body and the spirit. It's the tomes and philosophy behind Epica. It's the image, the clothes, the attitude, the website, a band...the muse. It's a lot of shit for several to do let alone one man to do.

Then there's the monkey day job. It takes far too much of my time. There's that word again: time. We the workforce and the executives would all like us to be able to go to 4 day work weeks (considering the hours we put in).. But we are understaffed and the stupid company expands with no one to work it's expansions. So where's the time to do what must be done? I'm at work at this moment. Luckily I can afford the down time to do a bit of writing...although it's not as much as I'd like.

I suppose, if life was easy... It would be trouble free and EVERYONE would be good at it, eh?

Posted by Darkstar at June 10, 2005 06:05 PM