The holidays. A tasking time for all. It is at this time of year that patience and tempers wear thin. Time is of an essence and money is tight. In some ways, people can't wait until they are over. Projects go stagnant. So far, I've succeeded in pissing off the roommie, reaching new heights of sloth and prioritizing the wrong things. But I look forward to several things planned.
1) Putting my mind body and spirit in order. Do I say this every year? I know... Another feeble attempt at "Boot Camp". Only this time, the deadline is shorter. I give myself til March end to complete my tasks.
2) Being notably better to my friends, and create my "Inner Circle". I need to stop being a waggling fleshy sexual organ. I need to find muses, musicians, and collaborators.
3) Getting my body ready for future grueling physicality. I think I'd have a coronary and die were I to do a concert tonight. I don't think I could get past one song on stage!
4) Finish Consecrate at least. 2-3 years between song production is pathetic.
5) Listen more to the silence, for it speaks in words we cannot hear with mortal ears. My psionic abilities are starting to re- emerge. I need to focus on that spirituality more.
6) Allow myself to realize that I am the prophet of this modern age. To no longer fear my destiny. To understand that the masses need leaders they can believe in and to BE one for them. To know that they will follow when I finally decide to lead.
7) to finish the Epican Lore, the tomes of our future Utopia. To solidify our ways and the ways of the D'Sari.
8) To hold fast to my convictions, to hold my honour true. To be larger than life in all aspects of life as I had once been in the past.
9) To learn Fantom if not for anything but to improve home music production, as Merlin asked "with a machine like that...what the fuck do you need ME for?"
10) Oh yea...to fix Sinistar... Every warrior needs his trusty steel steed. Every Captain needs a Flagship.
I guess after Xmas... I take control of more than just my own life, but the future of tomorrow's music and it's generations of subsequent listeners will hinge upon my accepting my destiny. I'm not concerned right now if anyone believes what I'm saying here... Now is not the time for such concerns. I only record my thoughts here. This is not a report for the general populace. If no one like what I say here, I'm sorry you feel that way, but it's not changing the outcome of anything.
-nuff said-