I'm done being passive. This is not the way of the D'Sari.Too long have I been sitting back either a) waiting for shit to happen or b) feeling that I may be too modest. My affirmations have all been off the mark. I AM the Chosen One. I AM the Prohet. I am a General in an army of darkness. I've been given gifts far beyond mortal man that I neglect... and for what? Fear? Fear is for the weak. The spoils of war are mine to take and that is exacty what this is; a battle between good an evil.
Halloween? Screw the whining, screw partying! I have forces to command , powers to invoke and Dark Lords to ask forgivness and the granting of my full infernal prowess.
Parties are for those with no direction who seek solace from their daily hum-drum lives. I need to make sacrifices (not ritualistic,so don't get nervous). I need to think like a D'Sari Knight. I need to embrace the Darkness like I never did before. I need to remember those little things I USED to do that were parts of the grand puzzle that is my very core of my powers. I need to stop thinking of what others will think save for what I deem it fit to show them. I need to stop thinking that I need to please everyone for in war there is an enemy, thus not all can be pleased. I need to stop second guessing things out of fear and weakness. I need to regain my strength against those who seek to usurp my authority as an agent of darkness and others who would seek have me fail in hopes to take my place.
I seem to have alot of needs. But to be successful and stop those who would seek to stop me, I must come to arms. I need to commit my life to the execution of my life's mission. Those who seek to battle me must prepare for a rude awakening. I must forge on until I can do no better, and cry "Havok! And let slip the dogs of war!"
This is my affirmation to the world. Some see me as a nobody, and to them I say "Beware, for you know not what you are dealing with. Prepare ye the way of the Darkstar!"
Others see what I am to be. They see the potential. They hope I may reach what destiny has wrought for me. I am late. The timeline changes every minute I delay. The forces that oppose me grow stronger as I lay dormant.
This is not a game. This is not roleplay. This is not a fantasy. This is what I am here to do. I WILL lead the masses to a greater endarkenment. I will no longer say "why can I not be like that other guy..." for I AM that "other guy". I'm the one they will remember as that legendary force of darkness that led millions to my musical call.
I will not go into the night silent and weeping. I will fight for what I believe is my cause. I will promise this world a saviour/prophet that will save their minds from the prattle they are forced to swallow like cattle. I will make those who scorned me and mocked me pay as I have in the past. I will prove wrong ALL who have doubted me. I WILL begin to toot the horn that is mine by right to toot! If you don't like it, STEP ASIDE!
These are the affirmations of a leader and a prohphet! Heed them and make way!
I promise to you all a way of life, of belief, of endarkenment. I promise you solace. I promise to take your blood and your tears into my goblet and drink them for you, so as to ease your soul. All I ask is that you believe in me as others do. One by one, you will fortify the army of darkness. Together we can rule this new millenium!
I wrote the following on the Dark Forums, anonymously once, some time ago during the time of the Iraqi war... Now that I think about it, my modesty made me hide my true self, for then I believed that no one would fathom me, my power or my mission. I cast off ill-opinion of me, for no prophet or messiah has not undergone scrutiny or ridicule. I read it now and believe more than ever that I am the Nexus. Join me into greatness!
Look at the world as it is. Then magnify the area. Look at the your local personal world. Have you notice anything abnormally crappy in it lately? Is your life seeming to take a turn for the worse and so are your friends and family? If not, then you are one of the lucky ones. I see some of you are writing things that speak in similar tongue. How bad things are happening to you? How they are happening to everyone around you?
The war was a waste of time. Have YOU seen any WOMD's?Neither did Bush and his hordes or stormtroopers.
States are declaring Marshall Law on smokers, replacing Jim Crow laws with Joe Camel laws.
And yet...closer to home... Friends and families are going through odd hardships. Things they can't explain.
What's happening to this world? Is Ragnarok approaching? Is there anyone out there that's to save us all?
And which side will they be from?
Here's a random thought. Can one be so presumtuous to believe that one person can make a difference? To expand on that...what if one person actually CAN?!?! In fact, what if there was one person who's actions or lack of action was inadvertently responsible for impacting almost everyone around them...or worse the country or even the PLANET!??! Can such a person and their actions be such a nexus for all things good or bad? Could we ALL be being punished for said Nexus' actions or FAILURE to act?
Who could be so lucky or unlucky to have such a task thrown upon them in almost a Messiah fashion? The second coming of Christ was what some had once hoped for. Others hoped for the coming of Michael the Archangel... Some sacrifice nightly to Belial in hopes he will grant them favour.
In the end...something or someone may come. Maybe one of the great generals of the forces that be and not actually that force in itself... But something's coming and it will either make us or break us. Someone will enter ALL our lives on a grand scale... Like Caesar...like Ghandi....like the American forefathers...like Hitler... Something either so grand or disasterous we won't understand it. It may help, it may hinder, but it must come. I surely hope it wasn't meant to be Eminem.
The struggle for good and evil is bigger than before... Yet I still can't tell who's winning. My bet's leaning on evil in the 8th round, TKO. What side will YOU be on? The 50's are gone. The cold war ended.... Family values have evaporated.
Have you realized that we are nearly exactly like every post-apocolyptic sci-fi movie that was ever made? Does that mean we evolved to this point or did we simply follow a scripted pattern and fill the mold? Any movie about the future seemed to always have the 21st century painted as a dark modern Soddom and Gomorah. Where leather clad people do naughty things to each other and commit crimes freely and have sex hedonisticly.
I'm going to go now. Ponder with me this last thought.: If there is a Nexus... I hope he's reading this. If YOU are that Nexus unknowingly or not, stop thinking humbly and step up to the plate and do your job! And if I am that Nexus...we're all fucked.
Well...maybe we're not fucked if I follow the proper path. I will not make a world for my children that I will hate, knowing that I was the one that could have made it better. Am I the NEXUS? I believe so. Even if you don't. You WILL. Mark my words!